Whites of my eyes

Ever had that much fear build up in your body all you can see is whites of eyes.  Not even pupils showing.  That was me 12 months ago when Coach M said; “how ‘bout you do swim leg in team for 70.3 Cairns Ironman.  Which my reply came; ‘How ‘bout NO.  With whites of my eyes showing, body shaking in pure fear.  BUT with that, the seed was planted by coach M, that’s how she rolls.  From then thoughts started creeping in, at the end of my nightmares.  Time ticked away, tears fell after working myself into an emotional frenzy, and finally I said yep.  What was I thinking…  The whites of my eyes were about to show themselves…a lot.

See I really do have "whites of my eyes".  At summer camp for orphans in China with my little mate Holly :)